Makeup Haul, Free Books & More!

   When I was younger in life, say 13, I wasn't really interested in makeup. I was more Tomboyish in that since. I played softball and I thought makeup was a total waste of time. If I wore any makeup at all it was always lip gloss or lipstick. As I got older I wanted to try more makeup products like blush and eyeshadow. I wanted to wear makeup but at the same time I didn't want anything time consuming. Time consuming only meant having to wake up earlier and that was a big N-O for me. LOL! Since the time I was an infant I would sleep for hours upon hours. I love to sleep! Twelve hours of  sleep and I'm a happy girl. Anyways... having a clear complexion for me at least made things way easier. Foundation was never really in my makeup routine. And so fast forward to now, I want skin care products and makeup and as much as I wish I could just slap on some lip gloss and walk out the front door, I can't. I mean I can but today in society makeup is sadly a must. I guess, what I'm trying to say is that I'm starting to care how I look and present myself.     

   

   For Christmas I got an Ulta gift card and on Tuesday I finally went shopping! =D I got everything from BB cream to skin care products. Now, you all know I want to start a YouTube channel and I know that I said I didn't want to do makeup videos, but I really want to do one of those makeup haul videos, right now. LOL! Since I'm still researching and learning about YouTube I decided I would blog about it instead. 

   My Skin type is pale with a yellow undertone and a combination of dry and oily skin. 

                     Fun Fact: if you have dry skin use a CC cream and if                                                                                       you have oily skin use a BB cream. 

I learned that when I was picking a foundation for myself. Again, since I have a clear complexion I don't need anything heavy like a foundation. The BB cream I got will help conceal the few pimples I have and the darkness under my eyes. Plus its way better for your skin than any foundation.  

   On our way to Ulta we passed a used music, book, and tech store, that had like five or six bins full of books mostly, outside and above them there was a sign that said Free!. If anyone knows me at all I love books and will dig in trash bins for free stuff LOL! Okay, okay maybe not trash bins but The Goodwill and Garage sales, watch out, cause I'll see things that I don't need and waste money on stuff. Plus who doesn't love free stuff? am I right?! LOL! We also stopped by Target and Walmart but that was for skin care products mostly. 

   Here are the items I purchased =) 

My Makeup Haul

-Target-

Clean & Clear

Morning Burst Facial Cleanser & Night Relaxing Deep Cleaning Face Wash

$8.99

Simple

Micellar Facial Cleanser Water

$6.99

Neutrogena

Oil-Free Eye Makeup Remover

$4.99

Neutrogena

New! One Step Gentle Cleanser

$6.29

-Ulta-

Real Techniques

Travel Essentials Set

$17.99

Physicians Formula

Bronze Booster Glow-Boosting Airbrushing Veil - Deluxe Edition

Light/Medium

$15.99

Physicians Formula

Mineral Wear Talc-Free Mineral Airbrushing Pressed Powder SPF 30

Translucent

$13.99

Physicians Formula

Magic Mosaic Multi-Colored Custom Blush

Soft Rose/Rose

$11.99

Physicians Formula

Super BB All-in-1 Beauty Balm Cream

Light

$14.99

Physicians Formula

Shimmer Strips Custom Eye Enhancing Shadow & Liner - Nude Collection

Classic Nude

$11.99

Physicians Formula

New! Sexy Boost Cat Eyes Liner

Black

$9.95

Revlon

ColorStay Liquid Eye Pen

Blackest Black

$9.99

Urban Decay Cosmetics

Original Eye Shadow Primer Potion

$20.00

 Revlon

Lash & Brow 

Groomer

$4.99

COVERGIRL

New! Full Lash Bloom Waterproof

Very Black

$7.99

-Wal-mart-

TRESemme

Extra Hold Hair Spray

Travel Size (For my Eyebrows)

$1.47

-Ulta-

Clinique

Liquid Facial Soap

Oily Skin Formula

Free Sample

Clinique

Super Primer

Universal Face Primer

Free Sample

Clinique

Clarifying Lotion 3

For Combination Oily Skin

Free Sample

Clinique

High Impact Mascara 

Black

Free Sample

Clinique

Chubby Stick Intense Moisturizing

Lip Colour Balm

Broadest Berry

Free Sample

-Products My Mom Gave Me-

( My Mom never uses these products so she handed them down to me. They're like in Brand New Condition! ) 

Urban Decay

All Nighter

Makeup Setting Spray

Right now it's $30.00 at Ulta

Urban Decay

Brightening & Tightening

Complexion

Primer Potion

Right now it's 31.00 at Ulta

-Free Things I Got at the Used Music, Book, & Tech Store-

National Bestseller

Amy and Isabelle

By Elizabeth Strout

Free

The New York Times Bestseller

Good in Bed

By Jennifer Weiner

Free

#1 New York Times Bestseller

The Thirteenth Tale

By Diane Setterfield

Free

National Bestseller

The Dogs of Babel

By Carolyn Parkhurst

Free

#1 New York Times Bestseller

The Street Lawyer

By John Grisham

Free

Ginger bread

By Rachel Cohn

Free

Music and the Mind

(Two Cassette Tapes)

By Michael Ballam

Free

Pilates Beginning Mat Workout 

with Ana Caban

(VHS Tape)

Free

And last but certainly not least. . .

Life is Good.

By Simple words from Jake and Rocket

   If anyone has any Questions or knows anything about the Products above Please leave me a comment down below I would love to hear from you guys. =) 

                                                                                                       Until next time... 

                                                                                                                   Take Care!

How a simple house hold chore turned into an Escapade

   Today I wasn't planning on cleaning. But every now and then I will get this burst of energy and I will start reorganizing, rearranging, dusting, vacuuming...etc. The bird cage needed to be cleaned desperately and since Rosa (aka my parrot) likes to throw food and pick out the food she doesn't like/want vacuuming was a must. Rosa, you picky eater why must you throw food?! lol While I was vacuuming I noticed "Bigfoot" had decided to drop by and roll around the living room floor.
lol  
          True Fact: You can lose up to 100 strands of hair a day.

I could not believe the amount of hair that had accumulated around the bottom of the vacuum. Now, I only vacuumed the living/dining room area but the amount of hair that came off the vacuum could cover someones bald head. So after 45 mins which seemed like forever of prying and pulling I managed to get all of the hair. 

Before

After

My sore wrist ='(

   










   In the mist of putting the vacuum back together I managed to drop the damn thing on my left wrist. How I managed to do that I have no idea. But I do know or at least I think I know its not broken. If anything its a very sore sprain. ='( I'm just an accident waiting to happen, I guess. lol

Branching Out...

                                                        

    I don't want to be cooped up in my room anymore or in my house. I don't want this life that I live right now. Wake up ... do nothing ... go back to bed. It's like an endless cycle that never changes. But despite all my demons ... meaning my Bipolar, my Depression, and my Anxiety, I'm really trying to put myself out there. I've started going to Bible Study on Tuesday nights, plus I've also started going to a Women's Group Bible Study that started last Sunday. I'm making new friends and I'm starting to get out of the house. I'll be 25yrs old in May and I'm tired of doing nothing and sitting on my ass all day. Don't get me wrong, I don't mind helping out my Mom who's disabled. I'm actually grateful and happy that I get this time with with my Mom. I love my Mom! But at some point my Mom won't always be there for me and then what? I need to start branching out while I still have my Mom around. And I'm not saying my Mom's gonna die anytime soon. I want her to live as long a life as possible.


   Branching out has not been as easy as I thought, you could say I'm Socially Awkward or just plane Awkward. Most of the time I don't read people right and maybe that's because I've been out of practice, cooped up. Sometimes my Anxiety makes me feel like everyone is either talking about me (and not in a good way) or watching my every move, waiting for me to make a mistake. Sometimes I feel forced in a way to make small talk when someone is standing/sitting near me. 

   
   On to happier things... I've been researching on YouTube, how to be a Successful YouTuber. Like... Lighting, Filming, Editing, and Uploading. I think I want my videos to be under the category of Vlogging. I love make-up and I love watching make-up videos but I'm not the person to come to for advice, if you know what I mean? On how to put make-up on. However I wouldn't mind reviewing products of any sort. Such as toys, I'm a Big Kid at heart and would love to review/play with kid toys. =D I'm having a hard time picking a Username. I know it has to be catchy yet easy to remember so with that in mind, I could really use some help. If you have any ideas for a Username or Video Ideas too, Please let me know in a comments down below. It would be much appreciated, Thank you!  

   Sorry that its been a while since my last post. I'm gonna try to type a post at least once a week, that way it leaves me comfortable room to come up with a post.   

Much 

                  Love,      

                                                            Amy                                  

           

Broken

   I can honestly say I don't know how I do it. How I get up in the morning(s), how I get through the day(s) or how I go to bed at night(s) all while knowing I have to wake up the next morning and face the day all over again. 

   I feel trapped in my own world of deep wounds that turn into scars that never heal. This is not how I wanted to live. I wanted Graduation, Job(s), Friend(s), Boyfriend(s). Instead being homeschooled wasn't exactly the high school experience I wanted, my Anxiety keeps me from getting Jobs, and because I'm more of an Introvert friends and boyfriend experiences are at a loss. I feel like I'm falling deeper and deeper under water and my lungs are about to fail me. Family and friends tell me that they can help and understand but the truth is, is that they can't and they don't. Not until they've actually been in my shoes and experienced what I felt and been through.

    My Grandma has this saying that she's always told me ... "Everybody needs someone to love, something to do, and something to look forward to." aka (a purpose) you could say. I'm still looking/waiting for that purpose. I feel like while everybody's life around me is moving forward, I'm standing still waiting for my life to begin. I feel broken like no one can fix me (like I'm a car lol). My posts won't always be this depressing I just happen to be stuck in a very depressive state. ='(  

R.I.P. My Dear Friend

 

   In my previous post I mentioned that I was doing this for therapy reasons, this is true. I needed an outlet that not only motivates me but helps me to express myself more. I tend to keep/hide my emotions.Which in my case can be dangerous if not deadly. 

   I'm type II Bipolar, have severe Depression and Anxiety. I also have Gastroparesis and tumors on my liver. The tumors are benign for now, Thank God! And my Gastroparesis is idiopathic. For those of you who don't know what Gastroparesis is... here is a link explaining what gp is....  http://www.g-pact.org/ 

   I recently found out a very Good friend of mine passed away ='(

Here is my letter to her...

   Dear Maxine Leonard,

       You died on February 17th 2015. You lived a long wonderful 87 years. And you were a Delight to be around. I want you to know that I will always Cherish and Miss the Memories and Moments that we have spent together. You should know, you were a Big part of my Childhood and I will never forget that. You made me Laugh, Smile, and even Taught me a few lessons here and there. I want to Thank you for everything you have done for me. So here's a Big, Huge

"Thank You!"

from me to you. =D I know you're in a better place now but to have just one more day with you, to have one more laugh, to have one more hug, and to have one last final moment with you to say "I love you" & "Goodbye!". But it's not really a Goodbye it's more like a final fair well. I know with all my heart we will see each other again, but hopefully not to soon. I'm Happy for you! You're not only in a Better place but you can now See and Hear. You have you'r Memories back. You're with you're Mom and Husband (Bill). We will meet again but until then.... Goodbye.

                                                                                                   Your Dearest Friend,                                                                                                                                                               -Amy  

P.S.  One more thing can you tell Grandma Borges "Hello!" and give her a Huge Hug for me! =D               

My #1st Blog Post!!

  Hello Everyone! Welcome to my Blog! 

       I should first say that I made this blog for therapy, more so for an outlet than anything else. So lets see... where should I start...

       My name is Amy & I'm 24. One of my favorite things to do is read. You should also know I'm a total Twi-hard. No like seriously I'll post pics of my room sometime. lol I read all the Twilight books in less than a week and I'm a slow reader you could say so it was a big deal. =D I discovered the books three months before the 1st movie came out in theaters. I had no clue how obsessed I would become over the next five years. I have to say I'm still obsessed just not as much as I used to be. I have other book series I'm into now like Fifty Shades of Grey. lol I will have to make a blog post all about my obsession with Twilight.

     Ok so my first escapade just happened about an hour ago. lol My blue headed pionus parrot, who happens to be in heat and happens to think my Mom is her mate, decided to bite me (yes I said bite lol). If my Mom is around at all and I try to handle/touch her ... watch out lol she starts to become very territorial of my Mom and her surroundings. Well I made the mistake of taking her into the room my Mom was in and she bit my middle finger nail very, very hard. I think it was the hardest she's ever bitten me since I got her. Btw I would show you but I don't want to flip anybody off, lol I think I might lose my finger nail. =,( Btw her name is Rosa and we've had her almost ten years. We got her from a previous owner who also got her from a previous owner and so I think she's around 15,16, or 17yrs old. Rosa has become more my Moms bird over the years we've had her which is ok cause I know how much my Mom loves her but I just wish Rosa would respect me more. My finger is literally numb. I locked her up in her cage and I'm trying to ignore her but she's making a ruckus in her cage.

     Please know & remember I'm not a good writer and this is my first real blog I've ever had & please forgive my punctuation. I'll be posting more soon, =)